Friday, December 08, 2006

pet-ct scan on 12/19

Early this week I received word from Schuster's office that my upcoming scan will be on Tuesday, 12/19 at 7:30am. I'm scheduled to see Schuster the following afternoon for the results.

I continue to have those strange sensations in my abdomen around the area of the spleen. In addition, during the past two weeks I've noticed the same sensation has moved over into include the right side of my abdomen. What does this mean? I don't know. I feel well overall. Besides these feelings in my abdomen, my neck (especially the left side) has been quite stiff during the past two weeks and most recently, I've felt that classic pressurized feeling in my chest (which I mentioned several times in the past), but these "symptoms" haven't affected my quality of life. I've been able to go about my daily activities with no problems. Except for a few days this week because of the finals, I've been exercising. I must admit, however, that during this past week of final papers and exams, my attention has wavered at moments in part I think because I was concerned about my health. As I mentioned in a previous post, I've been trying to relax which I've been successful at some times yet some other times I think about the uncertain nature of my situation a lot. Because of the "symptoms" which I detailed above, I have a strong feeling that the results of the PET-CT scan will not be to my liking. What will happen as a consequence is only a guess. I have this strong hunch that's something is going on inside my body (again).

I've been trying hard to "hold out" until I return home in a week. During these past few weeks my varied thoughts have circulated over my death, cancer, and unaccomplished goals. The result has been that at certain moments this week I felt particularly alone - both physically and mentally. I feel considerably better right now, but about three days I felt as if I was abandoned . . . left to own thoughts and fears as I wait until my appointment with Schuster.

I just would like to complete this final year of my M.A. program and then, take it from there.


Comment Anonymous Sarah said...

You're in my thoughts this Christmas, Duane. I hope things turn out unexpectedly well, but if they don't, all the support in the world is coming your way from DC.


6:42 PM  
Comment Blogger Duane said...

Thanks Sarah. You rock! Thanks again for always checking on me. Your stalwart support has meant a great deal. Best wishes to you and Scott this Christmas.

11:47 PM  
Comment Anonymous Anonymous said...

sorry you are worrying so over your health but completely understand. especially the first few years are always tough with health scares . just hang in there until you get home--another 9 days and you'll be home.
and you are NOT alone. so many people care and love you.
we are here for you!

7:59 PM  

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